My brush with suicide was fleeting. It was many years ago, and before I was diagnosed and treated for Bipolar 2.
I had been brutally and quite personally done over in a boardroom stoush the day before and hadn’t slept well reliving the experience over an over in my mind. With each replay my sense of frustration and injustice was intensified and my self worth diminished.
Standing in the bathroom that morning in my hotel room in Melbourne, mustering the energy to shave, I began to believe the world would be better without me and found myself thinking how that might be done.
As my thoughts became darker my mobile phone rang and thankfully I took the call. It was my only ally calling to ask if I was ok and could she meet me for breakfast.
Who knows what would have happened next but for that call. I like to think that I would have come to my senses out of love for my wife and children if nothing else but I can’t be sure. That far down nothing is logical, nothing is real except if you’re lucky, the outreached hand of a kind soul to talk you through the moment.
Lifeline this year will receive the calls of nearly 900,000 Australians who need their life saved. That’s up from 680,000 in 2011 and they haven’t the resources to answer them all. Despite the best efforts of the staff and volunteers, this year nearly 200,000 calls will go unanswered.
Watch this chilling but uplifting video and help me raise some money for this amazing service so every call is answered, and there ‘ll be no need for any rope.
If you need help or know someone that does you can ring lifeline on 13 11 14.